
Wayne, started Tribute Tuesday as a way to give a special hooray to people that have made an impact on us. Check out more tributes at his blog.
This week my tribute will be none other than.....ME! I'm so vain, I probably think this blog is about me..I'm so vain!
I'm not really vain. I don't think highly of myself at all. I just want you to get to know me better.
I, Stephanie was the 7th of 8 children. I grew up in the 60's and 70's which was a fun time being a kid. Parents didn't have to worry that their kids were going to be taken by some nut. We kids just went off and played in and around the neighborhood. We had tons of kids around and played from morning til night...outside. No video games, or computers or cable t.v. to get in the way. Every summer was spent at the swimming pool. Every winter, the only time we came in was to get dry mittens.
School was ok. I did well in grade school, but didn't care to much when it came to high school. Boyfriends were the important thing then, but when they didn't come around in junior and senior year, then it was just my 2 girlfriends and The Bay City Rollers. We were going to marry them.
18 was the legal drinking age back then, so when I turned 18, my friends and I were always out. Disco was the big thing in the 70's so we discoed away every Friday and Saturday night.
I was pretty stupid back then, (this is a tribute?) so to get out of the house and to not feel guilty having sex, I got married. That was pretty dumb, of course it didn't work out, so we got divorced.
I met someone else, loved him, got married.
I had no self esteem, drank like a fish, did more stupid things with my life, lots of stupid things, and after 8 years of marriage, got divorced.
Finally, in the mid 90's after being stuck in a dumb relationship, I was lying in bed, so fed up with my life, that I called out to God and asked Him to take all my crap away. I was not following the Lord at all then, so I don't know what made me call out to Him. Anyway, after I said that to Him, I instantly felt a giant weight lifted off my shoulders. I cried and cried and felt a new life was starting.
I still did stupid stuff with my life, but this time I had the Holy Spirit nudging me. He led me to the right people, and I started learning about living the life of Christ.
I started following Jesus in my late 30's so learning to get rid of the past was hard. Little by little I could see God making me a new person. He still is making me new. My ways of thinking have changed. Thank God. I have self esteem, I go to Him first (most of the time) when it comes to making decisions. I have that nudge of the Holy Spirit when I want to do something, but know it may not be the right thing to do. I am learning to listen to that nudge, which keeps me out of a lot of trouble and grief.
I've always been kind and nice, but it just is a better kind, and nice, since I have Jesus in my life.
That's because it's Christ living in me that is shining through. Do I fail? Yes, but God is right there when I call, to pick me up and get me to where He wants me to be.
Growing up, I never wanted children. God started changing my heart a few years before I met Perry. I was dating a guy, and the thoughts of having kids would come up in my mind, but also the thoughts of "I don't want kids with him". I didn't know then that God was preparing my heart for Perry and for children, because when I met Perry, and he said he wanted children, I knew that having kids with him was the thing God wanted.
Even sometimes now, I ask God why He made me a mother. My girls are pretty easy to care for, yet I still go crazy with them. God reminds me that He needs these girls, and He gave them to me to raise for His kingdom. Oh yeah, it's not about me, it's about Him.
This isn't much of a tribute. Tributes are supposed to be about the good things of someone. I have lots of failures listed here. I guess I just wanted to show you that I'm human, I fail, I have had a big failure of a past, but because I surrendered my life to Christ, my past is gone and forgotten by Him, and I have new mercies each morning.
My list of good things: kind, helpful, nice, put up with a lot of crap, forgiving, thrifty, trustworthy, faithful. Is that enough? Sounds like I'd make a good puppy. I make for a good friend, but I don't call on the phone enough to chat. So you would have to call me. I will not judge you for things you do, but if it's wrong I will lovingly let you know. I'm a good person, but that alone will not get me to heaven. Accepting Jesus as my Lord and Savior and following God's Word and obeying Him, will.
So here's to me! Clink glasses, no alcohol, I gave that up about 16 years ago. You want drunken Steph stories? They're not pretty.
I just got a little teary reading this. I thank God for hanging on to me and choosing me to be with Him for eternity. Without Him, I am nothing. Maybe the tribute should be to Him.
I was going to put a picture of me in here, but my computer is telling me I have no business going where I want to go to get this picture. Whatever! It was a good picture, showing how skinny I want to be again. Ha! Maybe that's God's way of telling me that the picture would be a lie. :o)
My computer (satan) is acting up and won't let me publish this. grrr






